Tuesday, December 2, 2008
went there early in the morning yesterday, as early as 6am. the sky is not even bright. not much vehicles on the road. slowly, more people came. and while i was waiting, several thoughts came across my mind. how these people felt when their love ones are inside. how those people inside feel when their love ones came all the way so early to visit them. and it's surprising to see some who look kinda guai and with doting parents and siblings, ending up there as well. and when it was our turn, i have no idea what to talk. some more mushy words cant seems to come out from my mouth. even words of concern seems a little hard. but when it's time to go, i felt like crying. i wonder if the others feel the same as well. i hate the feeling and don't feel like going again, though at the same time feel like going. i was there again today. much stuffs to talk, though i feel kinda akward. afterall, we don't talk very often. the feeling of want cry was lesser, but still the can't bear to leave feeling is still there.
i always thought i've faced it. but you know, i didn't know why i cried. nah, for only around 5 mins. the uncomfortable feeling still lingers around now and then, but at least so much better than 1 year ago. i don't know why i'm so addicted to this person. if ever we lose such a close relationship, i don't know how my life would be. and boy, i love to see your smile, your laughter the most. coming from your heart ones.
5:46 PM
