Wednesday, September 10, 2008
when i want to talk to you but can't find much time, i turn to this space. i was writing my project. kor was studying. out of sudden, brother asked mummy for his dumbell,
rudely. i really hate his voice. he talks like the whole world owes him. so somehow, this dumbell issue leads to him shouting at mummy. kor went out and shout at him. so somehow again, everything leads to shouting here and there. i wonder when will he grow up and learn to love this family. both kor and i are trying to concentrate on our work, which obviously is not easy shit. and there he is spoiling our mood to study. he's always spoiling everything. like yesterday, i was about to leave house to meet someone. and i realized the extra lock is there, thanks to him.
it's project meeting almost everyday. i can feel my brain getting tired, the stress especially during meeting and working time. yesterday when we were distributing work and planning days for meeting, i gave the stress look, and ren hui says she can see my pimples popping out that moment. i am really super irritated by the pimple popping out! seriously it's getting me feel so inferior. friend said she noticed more pimples when it's near assignment submission. gosh, i feel like crying now. it seems like the study is making me so stress. please don't tell me my face looks worst during exam period. totally f up. :'(
played counter strike on sunday. it's been a long time since i touched it. have the gan chiong feeling, but i managed to kill enemy! =D i love this game.
with all the pimples and school work and, erm, infection, i have doubts in myself.
everytime i thought i would be fine. but i'm always not as strong as i thought i am. i don't know what's wrong with me. i need to talk, but i............ don't know.....
8:36 PM
