Friday, September 12, 2008
again, this space for me to speak when i need someone but none seems available.
i......... feel like crying. been quite some time since i last cried so i'm definitely not a cry baby okay.
not using much of laptop since it's like infected with virus. so i used desktop yesterday. and since i've been hogging the desktop for almost the whole night, brother couldn't use it. i had just finish a set of work, was chatting abit on msn to relax a little. when i was about to move on to my MR assignment, i heard a spark sound? i turned my head and i saw fire. i seriously don't know what the fuck is wrong with this brother. i think because of *censored*, he has spoiled his brain. it's already 1am plus, he couldn't sleep, and there he is playing with fire. luckily the fire isn't big, which he blew it out within 5 sec? i was so pissed, i wanted to argh, complain to someone, but at that hour, who can i turn to? i closed whatever i am doing and yes he won, he got the desktop on hands.
playing fire is not trivia things, especially in the house. and i was so angry yesterday, so i told mummy the moment she is back today. when she told me something might be wrong with brother's mind, i could understand she probably feels heartache.
not long ago, mummy told pa about this incident. somehow he was already in a not very good mood. upon hearing that, his face turned even blacker. and i become the victim, get scolded. he said why didn't i wake him up, cos that thingy which brother played, could result in explosion and blah blah blah.
you see, this
lovely brother of mine turned the house upside down again. i hate him for that. i hate him for getting me scolded, for spoiling everything. i guess pa will reprimand brother tomorrow? i hate knowing things in this house. some things are so serious that i can't keep mum about it. yet if i say, i'll be "bao toh-ing" him. like this incident, he would probably blame me. tell me am i right or wrong now?
sometimes i wish there's a thing called memory eraser. you know what it means by the name. everything is fucked up now.
11:09 PM
