Tuesday, August 19, 2008
remembered last year i am referred to another doctor because of backache. if i didn't recall wrongly, i was told that it's a no good sign if my nerves of other parts are in pain. just now i had nap after coming home from school. but i woke up from a super duper pain at my ankle. it's as if the nerves inside are pulling. i didn't know how to describe. i started getting so scared when i recall what the doctor said.
worst is recently i have been having very very bad infection. to the extend i wish i could drink bottles of detergent. i wish i can swallow all the medicines, take new medicines myself. yea, crazy ideas came into my mind. i have no idea how to clear it, yet am afraid to consult doctor myself. now i could only keep drinking lots of water and doing intensively what i'm supposed to do. hopefully it gets better.
every time it comes back, i pray that it gets okay, and promised to be good girl. but you know, being this kind of good girl is very very tiring. you don't know the fear i have whenever i visit the... erm, toilet. but yes, i'm old enough to be responsible for my own's health and life. so i've been trying to be good girl, long term. but sometimes even being a good girl doesn't allows me to stay healthy for a long time. it came back very very often.
i don't know. afraid now with the pain and the very bad infection. please be well, pleaseeeee!
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september is a busy month! i realized there's 5 assignment to be handled in on september! a reminder to myself, constantly do my work and don't push everything to the last minute, no matter how difficult it is!
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