Saturday, July 19, 2008
happy girl have been carrying her favourite new bag to school everyday, proudly and happily. looks pretty carrying it. hahaha.
have been emotionally down recently. as expected, the hardworking attitude doesn't last long. stayed back some days alone for short revision which doesn't help much. lectures for monday to wednesday is terrible. rushing through 2 chapters per day which i catch no ball at all. many times i feel like not listening to her and just start my studying in her lectures. but i thought maybe i can understand somewhere, but still can't. as for OB module, i haven't start my individual assignment that is due in 3 weeks' time. i haven't start revising for thursday to saturday's module either. i realize the next module on monday will be covering 2 chapters per day also. uni life is rushing like bullet train. help! ade is s-t-r-u-g-g-l-i-n-g!
i guess i'm giving up the idea of getting into student council. i realize i'm too dumb and slow to handle school work and i'd probably be the slowest student if i were to join council. i seriously wish i am smarter. can someone give me the strength to pursue what i want? i doubt it helps anyway, cos i didn't want to be the slowest student.
forget it, maybe you just don't belong there.sometimes, being a very good girl is not a good thing afterall. perhaps being a good girl is what makes me an introvert, which is quite a disadvantage to myself in many ways. you wouldn't be surprise to hear friends telling new friends "ade is very good girl one." and all i do is to give a smile, or "no la". and seriously, until now, then i know there are so many singaporeans out there who goes home late. i shall not elaborate on how i come to this theory though. it makes me realize i've been a very good girl for 21 years. and if only i could bring boyfriend back home. though i don't have one lah.
alright ade, get your ass off this computer table and start studying! quickly adapt to this new environment please! tough, but i got to hang on!
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