Thursday, June 12, 2008
i realize that all my emotions for the past few days aren't important. still, there are things i need you to know. but i'll keep it as short as possible.
i swear i tried very hard to be strong. reasons for why i behaved that way are not what you think. but it's unnecessary to explain. not forgetting the endless thank you i have to say to you. i really thank you for the opportunity to be so close with you. i have all the reasons for sorry and thank you, but thought it'd be better to keep it short like this.
when you're unhappy, strangely, i couldn't care about my feelings. i'll be unhappy too, hoping that you'll be mr happy again, which overlap the initial feelings i had. you said no emo elmo, no more crying. but how do i achieve that when in the first place you aren't happy?
despite all the unhappy things recently, i'm really happy when i managed to find the videos. although the moment of happiness for you might be short term, but at least i managed to do something for you. i manged to make you smile for some moment. and you know, that makes me happy. so now, you know what you should do right. (:
i've always believed in you. you've always been my number 1 idol. haha! i'd always admire the seriousness you contribute when you are doing things. went through d&t times with you, and the end product never disappoint me. seen you doing and running countless projects for council, none disappoint me. though i've never seen you done any presentation, but the reports alone never disappoint me. with no exception this time, i believe you'll go through the army times. so you've got no choice but to prove me right again this time round. =D
there are still so much things to tell you, to let you know. words of motivation, cheer up, encouragement, whatever you can think of. but...... i don't know. just take care and be brave boy! :-*)
maybe i'm just not good enough.
but,
我想，再也找不到另一个比我更爱你的人了.
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