Friday, March 28, 2008
today doesn't seems to be a good day. anyways, let's start from yesterday's graduation ceremony.
dad was sweet. parents said they didn't want to attend the ceremony. to cut the story short, he attended it by surprising me.
okay, i didn't fall on stage. hahaha! but my heart was pumping so fast, as if it's dropping out. those moments pass too quickly. in a blink of eye, the whole ceremony, reception and everything is over. i don't mind having a longer time of fast heartbeat. i want all that to rewind again. hah. many many pretty girls. then someone said i'm ugly. he knows who he is! bleah! then pengkee laughed at my hair. okok, i know my hair looks stupid. and i smile ugily at the camera. boo.
after the ceremony, took off the attire too early as i thought not taking pictures. was feeling out of place. then someone didn't reply my sms also. so i didn't take any picture with the attire on, except the one with my dad. only some pictures without the attire. seriously regret taking it off too early la. everyone took with their love one. where's mine? then didn't take a proper one with.......... then..................... sigh... it seems so unfamiliar.
to be frank, i'm not very happy about graduation. yes, of cos it's a happy thing to be able to get the cert. but i didn't really get to enjoy the whole thing. and when the video is being played, i got a little emo. there are things i miss, moving on and things gonna be different. next month when republican starts school, i'm not.
happy graduation to all. and yeah, happy for you as well. (:
as i've mentioned, i went to see the doctor today. listened to all the disadvantages of the op. and it seriously scares me off. but thankfully, i don't have to do it. for the time being. but still, somehow, i cried. not tears of joy that i'm not doing the op. just that... i'm still upset. no matter how unwilling i am, i have to take the medication, with increased dose now. i really hate the side effects. what if one day i faint on the street cos of the medicine? hah. another one, is making me feel so uncomfortable that sometimes i just cry myself to sleep. everything seems so tiring.
family stuffs. things that i don't wish to happen, seems to be happening soon. he just wouldn't want to change. i didn't know what to do either.
your care means more than anything to me. even just a little. even just to fu yan me.
hiding in the blanket.
bring her to somewhere with nobody else.
cry 1 litre of tears.
she'll feel better, i guess.
magician magician.
tell me how to make things back to how it used to be.
pardon the emo-ness. can't help it.
bye.
4:20 PM