Saturday, February 16, 2008
been thinking should i post this up.
friends has been complaining that my entries are too emo for humans to read. but no choice, this time i have to let it out. click away from this page if you don't like it. (:
"a home that doesn't looks like one."
why is that so? because of you.
who caused it? yourself.
and you dare to say it doesn't looks like a home. how many times have we gone crazy because of you. how many times a happy time becomes the opposite because of you. how many times i shed tears of fears because of you. how many times our heart has been broken because of you. how many times innocent parties are being blamed because of you. how long have you given us trouble. people changed for the better. but after all these months, i don't see a different you. getting from bad to worst instead. didn't we give you chances? didn't we give in to whatever you want? didn't we show enough love and care? sometimes we just don't understand why effort doesn't pay off. and do we mean so little to these people. a girl you've been together with for less than 4 months, beats a family with you for 18 years. sometimes i feel as if we need a new home; that
chalet.
living in fear almost everyday. i'm not a super woman. i can't handle all that's happening. i don't know how long more i can hold on. please be fairer to me. it's enough. what i want is really
simple. but i wonder why is it that difficult. i guess sometimes running away may be the best solution. but where can i run to? hah. so perhaps, i need a feeling-less potion. or a forget potion. drink already i would be feeling-less or forget about the unhappiness. lol. then i wouldn't bother how much trouble he's going to bring to us. but there's no such potion. i'm tired.........
looking at sweet sms once in a while. looking at loving pictures once in a while. thinking of the sweet times once in a while.
i do.
do you? (:
i hear the sound of a heart shattering.
6:33 PM
