Friday, September 28, 2007
lesson ended. super duper duper duper duper sad. to the extend i really want to cry. i think it's really the first time in rp i feel this way for lesson.
last week i got D for this module. words of encouragement and motivations from friends makes me want to work hard today. so yes, i did put in effort. i did the worksheet and ppt. and i asked my team mates which part of the worksheet they at, discuss a little with them, and discussed the ppt. all these effort are not seen by fac. he only see the silently sitting here facing laptop de me. he didnt see me talk.
second meeting. discussed worksheet with class. there are points i want to say, but im afraid im wrong. i know i shouldnt be afraid of mistake. so, this is my fault. when asked the class questions, i really give serious thoughts to the questions. sometimes i wont even bother, but this time, i really think of the questions being asked. but my brain kinda process very slow. so when i want to answer, other people already answered. if not, it's like why i said ealier on, im afraid of mistake.
presentation time. i wanted to read my slides, so that i have more things to say. but my team didnt allocate the slides. so im asked to read a unfamiliar slide. yes, just reading blindly which last less than 1 min. today lesson is about drawing flowchart in visio. we are supposed to present other team's work. one of the guy in my team point out alot mistake of other team's work. so the fac says "let the ladies speak", which is me and another girl. then another girl points out another mistake. and for me, im still processing and trying to understand. after a while, the fac says never mind, move on. so, during the whole presentation, i only speak like less than 1 min?
then lesson ended. one of the team asked whether to evaluate a guy, cos he left at first break out. this is what the fac says:
"you can get F even if you stay for the whole day"
"those who are shy or doing own things" blah blah blah.
"you think you will get C just by sitting there?"
"if you discuss within the team i can see"
seriously i think i will get F today. the thing is, he didnt see i put in effort!!!! okay, the effort i put in may not deserve A or B. but seriously, i feel i should at least have a C. but i think i'll get D or F today.
super duper sad la. but am really thankful for friends who motivate me and somehow make me smile a little. but still, in my heart, im sad.
and. i hit my hand when i was helping the class to switch on the lights. it's painful even till now. i xi shen my hand, yet i will get a F grade. hahaha. crap.anyway i had a dream yesterday. a dream which i think wont happen in real life.INEEDYOU.
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